Telling anyone how I feel doesn't even compare to the real feeling... I don't even think you understand me.
You speak of all this pain and regret, like saying it enough would make things better.
I started talking to someone else because they reminded me of you in the ways I like, but he was different because he kept me distracted from thinking about you. It got old pretty quick... Now I'm back to facing what I have been trying to avoid, my broken heart.
I wish it was easy for me to say that we could work things out and believe you when you say it will never happen again.
I believe in love, but I believe that love is different in everyone's eyes. My love for you is unconditional, but it doesn't mean it will always be the same... People change. I'm pretty sure you love me, but not the way I thought you love me. The love I thought you had for me would have never even considered doing this to me... The person I knew would never do this to anyone.
I guess things would have been different if it was just a one time mistake, if you didn't really mean what you did or you were honest like I always asked. This is who you pretended to be... for me. I guess in a way that shows you care.
Have you honestly thought about how much pain you have brought into my life? You have hurt me more than anyone. I would have never done this to you...ever. Only someone with a selfish and blinding heart would even consider something like that.
Do you ever think about how fucked up the situation is??? SERIOUSLY FUCKED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How the fuck am I suppose to get over this???
My heart is broken. I'm not the same person. I'm scared of trusting people and I feel stupid for talking about my feelings anymore. I feel so fucking alone. I don't even know who you are.
Why did you do this to me?